i love you..

i have fall in love with someone. he's older than me 8 years. i know it's crazy but i love him so much. i love the way he talked,the way he treated me,the way he cares bout me and else. he's sweet. i love him since last year. after i met him 1st tyme my heart was started love him so fucking damn much but i try to ignore it but i cant cz i love him so much. then oneday i cant keep my feeling anymore. i never do this in my life. this is 1st tyme i did that is i confessed that i love him. serious i said it felt i wanted to die that tyme.haha. i afraid im gonna lost him.;( i dont want lost again the person that i love. it has happened in my life. it hurt me so much. so, i dont want it happen again. then,i 'redha' with what's gonna happen after i confessed. i told him everything. then,he responed with the good way even we were not couple. but i thnk to god cz he still want to friend and care bout me. but something that me feel sad cz oneday i know someone fall in love with him too. they're very close friend. i dont know wether they close is just friend or more than that. until now i dont know who's in his heart.i dont like to fight cz of guys or never fight for it! even thought,i cintekn org tu cm nk gyle pn.never fight laa.t's hard and hurt but what can i do ryte?huh!;( still have maruah kot. i keep waiting for him. i love him. i dont care bout his age or else. i need him in my life. he opened my heart since i broke up with my ex. i thought after i broke up i cant love anyone anymore cz that tyme i love my ex very much. i loyal. i cant fall in love with any guys in easy way even handsome,rich,hot,famous. i dont care!im not choosing.i love someone cz of their attitude or the way they care bout me. so, i think i have found the right guy for my life but it's hard to have him.;( it's also impossible to have serious relationship with him.ntah laa. haish. ssh nk ckp. i just leh ckp i love him so fucking them much no matter what. selagi dye xde gf selagi tu i'll wait for you sygg even im not show it to u anymore.its better i keep in my heart.if takdir or jodoh i dgn u xkemane ryte? so,ill pray for it.im waiting for u and i need the answer to move on.thnks cz care bout me and still friend with me.;) i hope u will appreciate it. cinte xleh dipakse. i just want honest from bottom of your heart to love me.;) just remember i always love u darling.your name is always in my mind,my love to u is in my heart and your face is in my dream.;) NURUL MUHRIZ MURAD<33