3days before i go home...

someone that i loved before come again into my life. i have been a long tyme i waited for him and at last he come again. im very happy but i know he will leave me again and again.;( he makes me hurt. i dont know why he comes again into my life. huh.. im tired of loving someone. im tired of their game. im tired of waiting someone. why must all this happen to me? why? i always think most girl out there got what they want. why my life is not like them? i need someone that can loyal and serious with me. now most guys i dont know why they like to treat all girl must be the same.sometimes in some relationship they just want to take advantages only not cz of they have serious feeling! sucks! haih..

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the day that i 1st tyme met him. we're dating together, watch movie together and do everything together. for along tyme i never date with guy or meet any guys just me and him. must be someone company me but on that day we met without others know it. that was the happiest day in my life. i mean with him. he makes me love him. he treated me like his gf. he's so protective,kind,funny and sweet. i love him but i dont know what's he feel to me. until now i dont know. b4 this we otp every nyte. he's too kind to me. thats y i love him but now he treat me different. i dont know. the day after i met him we otp and then he said he love his partner. my heart totally hurt!;( but i cant do anything except i quiet. i dont understand why he treated me like that at the same tyme he had feeling with other girl. totally sucks! then i try to stay away from him then he said he doesnt love his partner anymore but he loves another girl i think. her name is tasha. he said to me he and tasha are friend and he doenst want to think bout her but he told his friend he wants to wait 4 tasha. i really dont understand. he never want to pick up my cll. sucks gyle! it make me hurts. if he really doesnt want i cll him or else just tell me. dont off the phone. ill never find u ever again! huh! tension gyle pk! but only 1 things i tell his friend, he makes me love him so much!thats all. ill wait until his besday or until i meet him again. if nothing happen ill move on. i dont want my history happen again!never!!=.='

new life...

11thmay09-i continue my study in kedah. 1st week im here i feel like fucking doing the orientation. my 1st impression i thought my life in here was like that. if like that i think im gonna die! haha. btw i miss kl so much! i miss my friend in kl.;( i miss nk lepak sume. tension gyle! my friends ok la kt cni. but mostly i friend with phg,perak,kedah,jb people.if kelantan i KURENG sket. haha. nyway, ive found someone in here. he's cute. but just admired him and just wanna be his friend. he's from kl,kelana jaya.;) thnk god. i thought i never find kl guys in here. haha. gyle jahat.haha. now i friend and he always txt me.;)

9thmay09

that was my birthday party!actually my birthday is on 13th may but on 13th may i need to coninue my study in kedah. its too far. haih. but i dont mind cz all my friends make me happy on that day! mule2 i thought cm xde je org kn. then, dgn bash, zamir sume serious happening gyle! then isha and rara sygg.;) i love u guys! all my bestfriends yg sudi tlg on that day. the happiest day in my life.;D btw thnks a lot for coming. qimie,naz and muhriz. thnks 4 coming even lbt pn. i know u will come muhriz.;) sorry cz xlyn u that nyte. i rse besala dgn u. haih. but thnks k dear.;) sape2 lg yg dtg thnks a lot! u guys make that party happening and awesome! cikgu! cikgu gyle best mlm tu. haha.;D amos,mamoo and imran thnks k.;) nxt tyme maybe i will do private party plak. then i will inivite VP especially and my friends yg rpt. to u guys yg dtg mlm tu, i maybe akn wt lg and u guys must come taw! thnks again!;D

if you're asking......

If you're asking if I need you.
the answer is forever...
If you're asking if I'll leave you,
the answer is never...
If you're asking what I value,
the answer is you...
If you're asking if I love you,
the answer is I do...
I Do whatever makes you happy,
I Be who ever makes you smile
I make you Laugh as much as you breathe
I Love as long as you live!
When i first met you ,
I was scared to talk to you,
When i talked to you
I was scared to like you ,
When i liked you ,
I was scared to love you ,
Now i love you ,
Im scared to loose you.
If you wanna see a rainbow
you must go through the rain
but if you wanna find true love
you must go through the pain..

26april09

today,online like normal but today quite bored and im not in mood. then someone have showed me something bout this girl. i felt like i want to punch her!haha.=.=' poyo punye perempuan. kaw tu mmg syok sendiri la wey!haha. kesian aku tgk kaw.haha. xde mase aku nk berebut dye dari kaw. and aku leh ckp la its very very very stupid to be desprate. u have a reason so, u can happy. if x mmg no way la weyyy.if mmg btol mmg aku ckp untung la kaw.but i know him. xmungkin!haha. da la mls nk ckp pnjang. buang mase je.

the end.

i have fall in love with u but u treat me like what i dont know. i ask u,i txt u everything i do but i think now u seems like u want to stay away from me. its ok laa. i cant do anything and girl yg dpt u kire untung la and jage la dye baik2 k. if u are mine i will never let u go cz i loyal to anyone that i love and im not like other girl that u think yg senang2 nk fall in love and accept anyone. now, no more laa. i think maybe i prefer i study sume. im sick of love and fall in love with anyone again and again. cm sucks je! biala pintu aty i ni close utk spe2 pn. NO MORE! i just want to say thnks a lot to u cz u mmg lyn i baik sgt dlu lg2 after i confess to u. i dont know what u keep inside yg i xtaw. i redha everything yg nk jd. just remember one thing i love u so much and i will keep it inside of my heart. but i dont love u like i love u before this. i know i never get u. im too low for u. we're in different wolrd i guess. its ok la. i bersyukur je cz i dpt kenal dgn org cm u and u open my heart to fall in love to u. im happy for tht. its really hurt if u want to know cz u always treat other girl seems like u love them but not me. im happy if u happy with girl that u love. even hurt me so bad. i cant read your mind and sorry if i said anything wrong to u. NURUL MUHRIZ MURAD has came into my life after i broke up. i love u so much nurul muhriz murad.

thnk u.

4mac09-someone has make me cry. i cry cz of him gk. i dont know what to do. at last i knew. i need to forget bout him. i cant do anything. even he never says to me that he has someone else but i need to forget. cz i love him so much i need to do like this. biar la dye happy dgn org yg dye syg. his heart its not for me nk wt cmne kn. but i always love u selagi u xdgn that girl. anything can change. if god want to give a chance i'll get that chance. i just wait sygg.;) but i just want to say thnk for my friend. cz he has company me when im sad. thnks fiqrie. sygg u laa.;b thnks 4 the songs and thnks cz sang for me. serious u made me happy!;D im not alone that nyte. thnks. and honestly i ckp i terharu gyle.;) if u free mainkn utk i lg k. nyway,thnks again!;D

sedihhhhh.;(

28febuary09- i saw the picture. i try to forget bout him but i cant. im not strong. i syg gyle kt u. i feel like i want to cry. uwaaaaaaaa! i miss you like hell.;'( no one know how i felt. do u cares? i dont think so. i love you. how can i forget bout u? help me to move on!;'( myself is so stupid. siape suro pegi syg org sgt. kn da jd cmni. adoyai. tolong laaa. i need tyme. 1week im not see u. i miss u. i want to forget bout u cz your heart i know it is impossible for me ryte? tell me!huh!what the fuck!cm bodo la aku ni. haish!;(

i'm sorry and my wishes.

I wish that I always could be with you
I wish that I was your only one
I wish that I can read you
I wish that you have time for me
I wish that you could feel the same as I do for you

I am sorry I am not a perfect size zero
I am sorry I am ugly
I am sorry I am fat
I am sorry I am not perfect
I am sorry I am sloppy
I am sorry I am not clean
I am sorry I like you
I am sorry I love you
I am sorry I write badly
I am sorry for you

I want you with me
I want you to like me
I want you to know I like you
I want you to not act different around me when you find out how much I like you
I want you to think of me as your one and only
I want to be with you
I want your smile
I want your awesomeness
I WANT YOU!

I love your smile
I love your hair
I love your voice
I love your style
I love your teeth (which by the way are perfect)
I love your eyes
I love your laugh
I love your noises
But most of all I LOVE YOU!

I watch you laugh;
When I giggle
I watch you stair;
When I smile
I watch you hug;
Wishing it was me.

i love you..

i have fall in love with someone. he's older than me 8 years. i know it's crazy but i love him so much. i love the way he talked,the way he treated me,the way he cares bout me and else. he's sweet. i love him since last year. after i met him 1st tyme my heart was started love him so fucking damn much but i try to ignore it but i cant cz i love him so much. then oneday i cant keep my feeling anymore. i never do this in my life. this is 1st tyme i did that is i confessed that i love him. serious i said it felt i wanted to die that tyme.haha. i afraid im gonna lost him.;( i dont want lost again the person that i love. it has happened in my life. it hurt me so much. so, i dont want it happen again. then,i 'redha' with what's gonna happen after i confessed. i told him everything. then,he responed with the good way even we were not couple. but i thnk to god cz he still want to friend and care bout me. but something that me feel sad cz oneday i know someone fall in love with him too. they're very close friend. i dont know wether they close is just friend or more than that. until now i dont know who's in his heart.i dont like to fight cz of guys or never fight for it! even thought,i cintekn org tu cm nk gyle pn.never fight laa.t's hard and hurt but what can i do ryte?huh!;( still have maruah kot. i keep waiting for him. i love him. i dont care bout his age or else. i need him in my life. he opened my heart since i broke up with my ex. i thought after i broke up i cant love anyone anymore cz that tyme i love my ex very much. i loyal. i cant fall in love with any guys in easy way even handsome,rich,hot,famous. i dont care!im not choosing.i love someone cz of their attitude or the way they care bout me. so, i think i have found the right guy for my life but it's hard to have him.;( it's also impossible to have serious relationship with him.ntah laa. haish. ssh nk ckp. i just leh ckp i love him so fucking them much no matter what. selagi dye xde gf selagi tu i'll wait for you sygg even im not show it to u anymore.its better i keep in my heart.if takdir or jodoh i dgn u xkemane ryte? so,ill pray for it.im waiting for u and i need the answer to move on.thnks cz care bout me and still friend with me.;) i hope u will appreciate it. cinte xleh dipakse. i just want honest from bottom of your heart to love me.;) just remember i always love u darling.your name is always in my mind,my love to u is in my heart and your face is in my dream.;) NURUL MUHRIZ MURAD<33